A saint? Hardly. I just take a different approach to characters that are enemies-from-within when I write my own stories. And, oddly, I never kill them off.
No, sadly. And my talent for writing doesn't really exceed beyond taking existing material and expanding upon it and/or redoing it. Basically all I do is fanfiction.
As we know, the film was trimmed of some gore to avoid an X rating. One of the things changed was Benny's death. Originally, you were supposed to see the drill coming out of his stomach, but it was "optically cropped" to remove the effect.